I recently read a post about how the writer did not want her child to turn out like her, and it inspired me. So I have decided to write my own version. I know, not original, but when inspiration hits you go with it.
I want to start by talking about what my daughter has done to me as a person.
My daughter has made me happier than I have ever been. I have a history of depression and anxiety with more than my fair share of highs and lows. About 6 years ago my husband made me the happiest I had ever been. When he came along my lows officially became a thing of the past. Don’t get me wrong, every relationship has its low moments, but he brought out a side of me that I had never seen. He helped me to see everything that I wanted to be and pushed me to be that person.
Then our daughter was born.
The second the doctor laid her on my chest and she took her first breath, I felt like I was also taking my first breath. She let out that first cry and all of a sudden everything made sense. The person that I use to be no longer mattered. That 8lb little girl is everything that I didn’t know I needed in this life.
In the 6 months that she has been on this earth I have noticed a drastic change in myself. Little things that use to make me mad no longer matter. She is my definition of happy. She has touched my heart in ways that I never thought possible. She has also made me fall even more in love with my husband when I didn’t even think that was possible.
So with all of that being said, I have to say that I don’t want my daughter to be like the me that I was before her. I want her to be like the person that she has turned me into.
I know I don’t have complete control over who she becomes, but I will do whatever I can to prepare her for the curve balls that life may throw at her.
I want her to be happy, have a kind heart, a gentle soul, a free spirit, and just the right amount of selflessness.
I want to teach her to always lend a helping hand and see the kindness in everyone, but don’t let anyone treat her as less than she deserves.
I want her to be everything that she wants to be and more. I want her to be as happy as she has made me.
That’s it. I’m not going to type out a long list of every little thing I want her to do or be. I am still learning who she is and so is she. I just want to sit back and enjoy every fleeting moment with her before the moment passes.